As a girl who is prone to anxiety and battles bouts of depression, I understand and can sympathize when the stress rises and turns into a full-blown panic attack. It can be alarming and scary when you begin to feel that inner heat flood from your racing heart, producing sweaty palms, trembling limbs, and a tightness in your chest, making it hard to catch your breath.
The last time I had a panic attack, I was forced to ride an elevator in order to visit my uncle in the hospital. The stairs were locked for the staff and workers that day, so I had no other choice but to take an elevator up to the fifth floor. Yet, before I even stepped into that enclosed box, that all too familiar wave of heat washed over me, and I immediately started hyperventilating. Claustrophobia has always struck my fear hormone, kicking my panic mode into hyperdrive.
Unfortunately, that takes shape not only in the form of being physically restricted to tight spaces and feeling utterly trapped, but also when I feel bound and suffocated by my own emotional state. This happened shortly after my mom passed, and I was home alone watching one of her favorite movies. I thought by doing this, it would bring back fond memories and therefore promote peace. But, in fact, because my emotions were still so raw, it caused the grief I carried to spin out of control as I choked back tears and found it difficult to breathe.
If you or someone you dearly love is prone to panic attacks, let me first share how sorry I am that you struggle with this too, as I know how debilitating and lonely this journey can be. However, over time, I have sought support and have learned how to recognize the situations and emotions that generally trigger that panic button, so I can try to prevent a full-blown attack. Intentional and deep breathing, getting outside to soak in some sunshine, or just calling a friend have been very helpful.
However, the most beneficial way to calm my heart, ease the worry, and restore a sense of peace has been reading Scripture and praying aloud. Next time you know you will be in a situation that could stir up worry or panic strikes without warning, lean into these Scriptures and prayers. Print them out and have them on hand. Then in times of need, read them quietly in your mind, speak them out loud, and etch them on the fabric of your heart, allowing God to cover you and reclaim a sense of peace so your mind, body, and soul can relax and rest in His care.
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